Funkonovo/Allison's autism Blog

Young adulthood-present I attempted suicide when I was 17, six months before graduation. I was hospitalized for the first of what would be over 20 spanning from 1997-2006. More bullying and much more blame came from what was supposed to be a place of healing. I was told how spoiled I was, what a con-artist I was; manipulative (as if plugging my ears and screaming at the loud toddler visiting was my way of wanting to “get” something from someone-other than quiet). There were more suicide attempts. In 1998, I saw the next in a series of psychiatrists/psychologists. This man diagnosed me, wearily, with “autistic tendencies”. I was 19. I went on to getting into trouble with the law and almost being imprisoned. I firmly believe if it hadn't been for my mom’s nursing sense and persevering spirit, I would have gone to jail and would not be here today. I questioned God. I began to wonder if He really did exist. I decided that He did, but that He hated me, even was bullying me. How s...

autisticaplanet avatar The following is a long list of what it is like FOR ME to live with autism 1. Having constant anxiety. 2. Constantly stimming to relieve anxiety, usually by rocking. 3. Hypersensitive hearing that makes living with most "everyday sounds" impossible. 4. As a result of #3, limited exposure to the outside world to keep me and others safe. 5. Unemployment. 6. Not being able to participate in what little programs there are available due to #3 and #4. 7. Knowing exactly what I want to say through writing often coupled with imagery with little need to revise. 8. Taking anti-anxiety and antidepressant medication to help me remain in my own skin. 9. Intrusive and unwanted thoughts. I have OCD. 10. Being a highly visual thinker who has to deal with #9 a lot. 11. Being poor at directions. I use landmarks to picture where I am going. 12. Not being able to drive. This also means I don't have a car payment or car insurance to worry about. 13....

The Onion in the Petunia Patch PDF This is my memoir compiled over the last 2 years. It is one woman's story about growing up with undiagnosed autism. Click on the link to view the PDF file. Thanks for reading! https://docs.google.com/viewer?url=https://www.freepdfconvert.com/result/downloadfile/fbe6b521-dd97-48b0-8086-388847c77bef

Reaching toward heaven I was trying to get a different perspective taking nature shots. I had looked up to see this mass of white clouds hovering above bare tree branches. The branches looked like arms and fingers reaching up toward heaven. The clouds reminded me of something like  Exodus 13:21    where God's presence was with the Israelite s, guiding them. God takes care of all those who put their trust in His Son, Jesus. I have trusted Him in seeing me through my mom's death, an arrest, transitioning from one treatment facility to another and more recently, some neighbors treating Saturday nights as their own personal 4th of July. I still feel pain. I am tempted to doubt and catch myself self loathing. I keep praying .  I know nothing lasts forever. I look forward to eternity with God and my Christian loved ones who are there already. I hope you will come to know Jesus and accept Him as both your Lord as well as your Savior. Amen! ...