Funkonovo/Allison's autism Blog

Picture: Lundholm organ-Pixabay At six months of fetal development, my mom noticed that I would violently kick in the womb when she played certain songs on the organ. My dad watched me leaping around in her stomach.  It was a disturbing and confusing moment for both of them. They hadn't seen anything like this before. Autism is a neurodevelopmental disorder whose traits show up often before 2 years of age. I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome for the first time in 1998. I was diagnosed with AS, mainly because I spoke early and scored 110 on my IQ test. It is interesting to note that I didn't walk unassisted until 18 months old, was only interested in the shadows the low, incandescent chandiler lights made on the living room ceiling at 3 weeks of age instead of my parents or screamed, sometimes for up to a half an hour after the wind blew a door shut on the opposite end of the house. I had intrusive, upsetting thoughts of harming myself or others go...

Photo negative of blog author lying on floor with OCD description I write mainly about my autism on this blog. I have not got into my co-morbids much.  When I was about five years old, I began to have unwelcome, unpremeditated thoughts. They were intrusive and did not reflect how I felt toward others. I kept hearing a (non audible) voice like "Push your mother/father down the stairs" when I would be behind them on a staircase. I "hear" an imaginary voice when I am reading. I don't know if others hear themselves read, but I do. I was also blessed with loving parents.  The thoughts I had were confusing and scary. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt or even kill my parents.  There were other directives, such as take one way around to the back yard or bad things will happen to you (meaning me). I thank God I didn't give into the inaudible voice, impulsion or compulsion. I could better function overall as a child. Most of my intrusive thoughts ar...

I am releasing the PDF book I wrote in sections. It is a brief memoir about growing up undiagnosed with autism back in the 1980's and 1990's. I hope in disclosing this people my age will know they aren't alone. I hope there will be lessons learned for bullies and judges and pitfalls to avoid for parents raising autistic kids today.  Introduction: There is an old song by Arthur Godfrey called “I’m a Lonely Little Petunia”. In it, the little petunia bemoans its smelly fate living among the onions. My mother used to call me the onion in the petunia patch, and not just because I was a little stinker. I amused and angered the “perfect” people in my life due to the glaringly obvious fact that I didn’t fit in or belong anywhere outside my home. I rocked, walked “like a duck” as one classmate put it, and screamed, plugging my ears, when a teacher put on an old, scratchy record. More than mere quirks, my autism affected relationships with others, sensory input and ev...

autisticaplanet avatar The following is a long list of what it is like FOR ME to live with autism 1. Having constant anxiety. 2. Constantly stimming to relieve anxiety, usually by rocking. 3. Hypersensitive hearing that makes living with most "everyday sounds" impossible. 4. As a result of #3, limited exposure to the outside world to keep me and others safe. 5. Unemployment. 6. Not being able to participate in what little programs there are available due to #3 and #4. 7. Knowing exactly what I want to say through writing often coupled with imagery with little need to revise. 8. Taking anti-anxiety and antidepressant medication to help me remain in my own skin. 9. Intrusive and unwanted thoughts. I have OCD. 10. Being a highly visual thinker who has to deal with #9 a lot. 11. Being poor at directions. I use landmarks to picture where I am going. 12. Not being able to drive. This also means I don't have a car payment or car insurance to worry about. 13....

Matching earring and necklace set in pink. gold and gray. I love to wear jewelry. My mother loved jewelry. I must have inherited this trait from her. I often do mix and match, but during a stressful event such as PMS . Something in my brain doesn't allow me to deal with mixing, only matching. Knowing this, I have a few matching necklace and earring sets. They are the "go to items" I wear when OCD has a grip on me. Department stores such as Kohls (where I shop) has plenty of affordable costume jewelry , including surgical steel earring backs. Cubic Zirconia or any clear crystal will go with anything. If you have any go-tos for stressful times in your life, figure out what they are and use them. It is a great coping tool.